What’s keeping you awake at night?

My anxiety has been rife lately, as I explore my feelings and heal I keep playing things over in my head. I have been on a journey with an amazing friend of my called Robyn I have been working with her to explore the root causes of all these feelings and managing ways in which to deal with them. Essentially rewiring my brain to go to the good stuff not the bad stuff first, this is a work in progress. One of the skills I had to do was write an “I am” list, actually quite hard to do when you put yourself down all the time, I needed to list all the positive I am’s about myself. I digress ….. so the night time thing … ugh go away! I realised as I go through all this anxiety my body cannot distinguish whether or not it is actually happening so as I go through all these scenarios in my head, all bad obvs but my body acts like it is actually happening. So when I have a flippant thought of “does that person like me” (these thoughts are less frequent its more of an example) my body is acting like this person doesn’t like me and I am filled with self-doubt and hate all from one bloody thought. So try for a minute to think of someone who does have anxiety, this happens to us all day, every day and sometimes night. So we are exhausted, I mean utterly truly exhausted. The other night I couldn’t sleep for fear of something happening to the dogs so I played out a scenario in my head, worst possible of course and my body feels like I have been hit by a bus as I go through every imaginable emotion that I would feel if this made up scenario in my head actually happened. So the body acts on the mind, back to the I am list, the constant thinking of positive I am’s makes my body feel super confident and loved … cue head held high walking on air … Keep practising the good thoughts, stay away from the negative ones, be kind to your body as well as your mind …..LOVE LOVE xx